Give Your Burdens to Him

Just living on earth gives this life opportunity to load you up with all kinds of weighty issues.  They’re heavy usually because they are not easily resolvable situations. In my life, if I don’t purposefully hand them over to Him, I end up transporting them everywhere I go. If you think about this from a physical perspective, you cannot carry anything continually without giving your body rest. You also cannot accumulate more & more since you will lose the ability to hold everything. Spiritually, the same principle applies. You’ll wear yourself out.  Besides that, your heart wasn’t meant to hold anything heavier than Love. Worry, doubt, hopelessness, stress, anger, disappointment, bitterness, fear etc. only place a burden on your heart and then your soul is weighed down too. Burden avoidance would be ideal, but life doesn’t ask permission before it delivers another load. So, I just need to get better at offloading onto Him. In exchange, He gives me sustenance. In other words,  the strength/ support I need to keep going. He has to do this because in a little while, life will confront me with some more freight and I need His Strength to be convinced that I do not need to accept it. But even if I do or its forced on me, I can, with His Help, decide to give it to Him. This is the Power of His Spirit of Love. It resides in the heart of any believer and it does all the heavy lifting so that you can rest in Him.

“Do you not know that your body is the temple — the very sanctuary — of the Holy
Spirit who lives within you, whom you have received [as a Gift] from God? 1 Corinthians 6:19

So, whatever burdensome thing your heart is trying to hold up, just present it to Him -and lighten up your heart. (I know it’s not that easy. I know all this sounds so succint in writing, but even if you have you to keep giving it over to Him a thousand times a day because you’ve taken some of those burdens back or because you’re under an avalanche of burdens, it’s ok.  He won’t stop catching them and He never drops them. That’s how it is with me.  I continually need to throw them in His Direction. I don’t even have to be a good shot.  It just needs to be in His general direction. He’s always ready.  Somebody asked me today how my week was.  I told them good and bad, victories and failures, sadness and joy. Pretty much regular life. Every day filled up with so much life and some of it,  I still never be able to hold.  So, I can’t waste more life trying to carry it. I have to let it go into His Hands.  Every time I fight to hold it, I only wear myself out and I never succeed in maintaining the hold.  That doesn’t mean if I release it into His Hands that I no longer care about it.  I definitely care and pray and listen and watch and hope to see what He is saying and doing through it and for it while it is in His Care.  He removes the fear and doubt and He gives Love in replacement.  And you know, Love Always wins.)

Love Always??? YouTube video



We Are Beautiful In Him


With the stars all around me, I’m feeling at home.

Here in the silence, I’m never alone,

And I know you’re out there, waiting for me…..

Millions of stars, golden and red,

their dazzling brilliance, over my head.

And I feel you call me with your soul.

Night after night, I go outside,

my thoughts and my feelings, I long to

confide. And my heart echoes in the silence

to where you are.

-Rebecca Wiles

Human measurement of beauty is so deeply flawed, yet it carries incredible power. But  beauty or appearance is tied to individual preference and opinion and it is ultimately transient. So, how can something so unstable and so non-standard have any part in defining me? It can’t. His view of me is the true metric of beauty. His definition of my beauty and worth is based solely on my heart. It’s all He ever looks at. My heart is not perfectly beautiful, but if I join with Him, He intensifies that beauty by giving me of Himself and He is the most Beautiful.

“Christ in you, the hope of glory.” Col 1:27

He also made all things and because of Him, they are beautiful.

“He has made everything beautiful in its time.” Ecc 3:11

How do I know that beauty is unrelated to any visual impression? Because His Beauty is not based on looks.

“There was nothing beautiful or majestic about his appearance, nothing to attract us to him.” Isaiah 53:2

It is Love and there is not one other thing that is more Beautiful.

Does this mean that words spoken by man are meaningless? No. They still hold value because  they can build up or destroy.  But,  even though they can, it cannot change what He has said about me. My flaws, weaknesses, failures, (and there’s a lot), doubt,  insecurities, human longings, will not nullify His words to me that affirm my perfection in beauty.

“You are altogether beautiful… there is no flaw in you.” Song of Solomon 4:7

And this is why:

“For by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being made holy.” Hebrews 10:14

So, I have all I need in His Love and in my moments where I need His affirmation, I can freely look toward Him and know He will fulfill my heart completely because Beauty is heart deep and as far as He is concerned, it is all that matters. His desire, though, is to increase and perfect our beauty and in Him, He does. He accomplishes this by His Great Love in Sacrifice, which makes us flawless.

?No matter the hurt, or how deep the wound is, no matter the pain, still the truth is: The Cross has made, The Cross has made you flawless.”? (Flawless, by MercyMe)

Love Always ???  YouTube video

Every Woman’s Battle: page 171

Women desperately need encouragement and affirmation. Some perform for others to get this need met. They knock themselves out for their boss, going way above and beyond the call of duty, just so they can hear, “You did a great job.” They fix themselves up all the time, dressing to arouse men and hoping to hear, “Don’t you look gorgeous today!” They go out of their way to do things for people just to hear them say, “I appreciate your thoughtfulness.” When you look to others for your affirmation, you have to find ways to get a fresh supply, which eventually will run you ragged. But God’s affirmation will fill your emotional tank even more than any human’s flattering words will. When you sense the God of the universe saying to you, “I see everything you are doing and your hard work brings me great joy; you are so beautiful to me even when you are sleeping; I see your heart and you are so very special to me,” His sentiments will send you reeling further than any man ever could.



I Am A Friend In Jesus

What is the precise meaning of friend? None of the dictionaries I went to could accurately and comprehensively define it. Generally it was described as a person for whom you have a bond of affection/trust, an ally, and a companion. But some of those definitions also varied on whether the person was a family member or not and some used acquaintance as part of the description. In addition, a friend can simply be a non-enemy or supporter of a cause. Finally, it also stands for social media connections. None of that helped me gain a definitive description of what a friend is. It’s not that I don’t know what a friend is. I just don’t think explaining friendship is cut and dry. Even how someone becomes a friend is not  universal. The timeline of friendship is not the same for all. In fact, it seems that each friendship can be unique. That uniqueness raised questions in my mind. At what point does a person become a friend? Can someone be a friend to another in spite of the friendship remaining unreciprocated? Is there a certain level of trust that has to be met to be friends? Does the value of the friendship depend on the extent of heart revelation shared? Can you have a friend in stages from shallow to deep? The only place I could find a true definition of friend and also answers to those questions, was in the Word. “This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.” John 15:12-15. Friendship is defined by the Love Jesus has for us. As He loved us, we love. How did He Love?  He took the initiative and He considered everyone a friend worth dying for. If I imitate Him anybody can be a friend and I can give of my life regardless of their actions/words. But I can’t claim I’m Jesus friend if I refuse to obey His words since it is a command. He died for all of mankind, establishing us as friends even though we had done nothing to justify His Sacrifice. We are actually guilty of doing The complete opposite. So,the meaning of friendship is found in unconditional Love. It is ideal if both parties are friends, but it isn’t necessary. According to Jesus’ definition, it only takes one loving person to be a friend. If I love like Him, I don’t aim to acquire specific personal recipricol friends. I am a friend, period.

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Tell Your Heart to Beat Again

You’re shattered
Like you’ve never been before
The life you knew
In a thousand pieces on the floor
And words fall short in times like these
When this world drives you to your knees
You think you’re never gonna get back
To the you that used to be

Tell your heart to beat again
Close your eyes and breathe it in
Let the shadows fall away
Step into the light of grace
Yesterday’s a closing door
You don’t live there anymore
Say goodbye to where you’ve been
And tell your heart to beat again.

–Tell Your Heart to Beat Again

Danny Gokey


I’ve walked through so many doors. Some I prayed about and others I stumbled in. Ones that were opened for me and some that I yanked open. I don’t know how good I am at deciphering the right doors. I need His Guidance because I think I passed through some just following my heart’s direction. I think I want to believe that the decision was a good one, but I know that there were times that I let my emotions lead and I paid the price. Sometimes it’s just hard to know especially with people. The only thing I know, is that I don’t know enough on the front end so there are times maybe I shouldn’t have moved forward. But, I don’t know. If there were some way that I could ever really know, that’d be perfect. It isn’t that every time I messed up. I am very grateful for the people that I have in my life. It just seems that lately, I haven’t heard His clear Direction and I kept walking. I wanted to go through, maybe that is the biggest problem. I think I should figure out really if He wants me to. Deep in my heart, I just want to go in those doors because I just want to. So, the truth is, I did hear His Voice, but I want to justify my decision. So, you know, I’ve screwed up a fair amount. And today, I feel really sad that I did. All of this probably sounds dramatic. It only does because people connect on a soul level in friendship and that’s why it’s never easy to disengage. This song may seem over the top for what I am writing about, but it resonated with me this morning when I heard it on my drive to work. Some things are not going to be part of life forever. The lyrics were perfect for what I was feeling, not just about relationships, but about other life issues. Yet, there is one thing I am very certain of. As long as we have a pulse, there is always hope. This is a weird verse, but I really like it because it confirms this truth: “Anyone among the living has hope. Even a live dog is better off than a dead lion.” Ecclesiastes 9:4   So, I’m still alive and this means that I have Him always at my side. He can make anyone a new again even if they are inclined to say or do things that are contrary to being or living like Him.

“Because of this decision we don’t evaluate people by what they have or how they look. We looked at the Messiah that way once and got it all wrong, as you know. We certainly don’t look at him that way anymore. Now we look inside, and what we see is that anyone united with the Messiah gets a fresh start, is created new. The old life is gone; a new life burgeons! Look at it! All this comes from the God who settled the relationship between us and him, and then called us to settle our relationships with each other.” 1 Corinthians 5:17

Things are just going to be messy sometimes. I’m going to be the cause of it a lot of those times. I hope that I use His Spirit when I make future decisions about anything. Yet ,I know that even after screwing up, if it doesn’t stop your heart permanently, your heart can beat again.

Love Always with every beat.  Youtube Video:

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Good is not the easiest word to define because it needs bad/evil as a contrast and even then, it is often dependent on specific examples. At times, we say it’s relative, but inherently, I know what is good. It’s partly morality & righteousness but those words don’t capture all of it. For me to really comprehend Good, I have to look at Him. “The Lord is good,” Psalm 100:5  He is not evil or bad in anyway.  He is void of anything that would fall under those categories. In comparison, I’m not good. Yet, I am, if He is in me. Knowing that, and letting my heart & His work together,  His Goodness can be mine. Honestly, it can be anybody’s. In order to understand this, I have to know His Goodness is. How hard is that? All I need is to look at His Love which died for us and now lives for us & is given to all, without exception. “And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself.” John 12:32 (His Hope is that we’ll surrender to Him because of it.) From The Cross until now, He is always Love, kindness, sacrifice patience, hope, forgiveness, faithfulness, truth wisdom, understanding. care … You know all of these good things because you’ve lived them at some point or you are currently living them. You’ve chosen to demonstrate goodness. But clearly we are still human. Our hearts have finite stamina. This is the point of this verse. It is for you, the one whose love has taken a beating and your humanity is tempted to put a limit on goodness. He knows it is not easy for us and that goodness is undervalued and unappreciated a lot.This is knowledge that he is super familiar with. ” I tell you, love your enemies. Help and give without expecting a return. You’ll never—I promise—regret it. Live out this God-created identity the way our Father lives toward us, generously and graciously, even when we’re at our worst.” Luke 6:35 TM or like it says in the ESV at the end of the verse: ” for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil.” Please don’t believe that your goodness towards others is ever in vain. He won’t let it be. “God is not unjust; he will not forget your work & the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them. Heb 6:10 (the last few days have been hard to pursue the good and persevere especially because I needed to hear His Song. Feel like giving up. But then He sings of strength in goodness)

Love and Good Always???  Youtube video


So, this directly ties in to my struggle in trying to continue to push through when I can’t get inspiration or I’m wrestling with this ministry.  The reality is that there are times it is difficult to believe any good is coming out of this.  Though,  I know He does good things even when I can’t see it.  So, the last three, four days, I’ve struggled to hear His Words and find the purpose in His Song which actually is always playing,  but I have to listen and believe it is Good and then follow through.  So, that’s the gist of the video and today’s message.  He’ll sing me into Goodness.


Our Song

“But each day the LORD pours his unfailing love upon me, and through each night I sing his songs, praying to God who gives me life.” PSALM 42:8

My music, my heartbeat, the cadence of my existence is found only in His Love for me. I am not alive outside of that because I have no where else to obtain my life’s tempo. His Song directs me at all times so that my soul is at rest and confident in our harmony. Without Him, the notes never flow well and I struggle to obtain the same kind of beauty in sound. Alone, I’m not capable. Together, we are supernaturally lyrical. Yes, synchronicity is our magic. ??????

“Your God is present among you,
a strong Warrior there to save you.
Happy to have you back, he’ll calm you with his love and delight you with his songs.” Zephaniah 3:17

Please leave a comment if you want more info and verses about joining Him in Song as a follower of Christ.  If you are interested in studying the Bible to find out more about this, I would love to help you.

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Train Me to Rest in You

Journeying through this life, I have those seasons that I feel like I’m on a bullet train and I just want to get off for awhile.  There are too many things going on too fast. But the train (life) isn’t going to stop for me and if I jumped off, it definitely won’t wait for me to re-board. When I feel frantic, I need stability.  In order to cope, I have to do something.  I know I should hide my soul in His Spirit and I know that I desperately need Him to soothe my being.  But I don’t always go to Him first.  I try other things, but He is the only One who can quiet my agitated soul.
“He comforts us in all our troubles.” 2Corinthians 1:4

“If you love me, keep my commandments. “And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another comforter, to be with you forever, the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him; but you know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you.” John 14:15-18

It’s like a Loving, Divine, straightjacket. It holds me still until I can get some spiritual equilibrium. I don’t need Him to hold me down and I don’t think that’s what He does. I just need Him to hold me. He knows.

“even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.” 139:10

I want to know this embrace all the time and never feel like I’m riding alone. He wants the same. My problem is that I forget. I have no idea why. That’s not true. I actually,  do know why.  I am away from Him too many times sitting by myself and then I panic. Without His strength, I want to get off or try to figure out the exact route or question the destination.  I stop looking at the scenery and I no longer enjoy the trip. I don’t want to live like that.  I have to decide what kind of passenger I’m going to be because being one isn’t going to change until the train reaches it’s destination.

I wish I could go back to who I was in my spirit months back before I took on this ministry.  I don’t remember at that time feeling spiritually unsteady.  I was solid in my direction and His plan for what He wanted for me.  I had prayed and I listened.  I didn’t know the all of the details of the journey so I had a few false starts but it was more of a discovery period.  I was hopeful and probably naïve.  But it seemed like this part of the journey would yield my purpose and I didn’t think about how other lives would collide with mine.  No regrets.  I have to say that because I do feel regretful at times.  Yet, if He didn’t decree it, He allowed it.  After all these months, I can count so many joyful and learning moments. After all that has happened, I really could never go back to how it was or I was.  I am not the same.  I really did enjoy so much of the trip despite the detours and questions.  I’m reminiscing and I think savoring life is what I miss out on when everything is moving so quick.  The last few months taught me so much and I really value what was revealed about Agape and Jesus. I think I’m going to put my mind and heart in that place and then let Him hold me until we arrive at our next stop or destination.

Love Always ❤❤❤

Run With Me


The days that I can run outside with Him are the best.  Especially because where I live, the weather is manic. It can be sunny and raining simultaneously. It can snow in June. It can hail without warning.  Even today was weirdly cool and cloudy after days of super hot weather. I never know what to wear. If I wear shorts,  I still have to keep pants and a heavy jacket just in case.  The unpredictability makes it hard to be with Him that way every time I need to run. It’s not that the run is itself is spectacular.  I’m not super fast (though my Altras make me feel like I am) and I’m not running for 20 miles, but it’s perfect for us. He is gorgeous every time.  I just need His companionship.  I have so much going through my mind during that time. I’m thinking about people and circumstances. I’m questioning and wondering. I want to know I’m not alone and that He is with me and that maybe He will reveal something that will help me understand the things that are puzzling to me.  There are runs that I do listen to Him better and He tells me what my heart wants so much to hear. I love words and He pursues me that way.  I don’t know why words affect me so.  My being finds such value and life in them.  I don’t think I could live without them. Not flattery or empty expressions. Real words meant for me and never said to another in the same way.    Honest, heartfelt, profound, intense, emotional, powerful, passionate words. Those are the words I need and want. That is all He ever speaks. The ones just for me.  I can’t run away from it.  It holds my attention every time. The way He displays Himself is very much a part of His speech. It speaks in a visual voice of glory and beauty. I just want to lay down my heart in His music and poetry and words and escape the doubt and worry and insecurity of this place. Maybe that is what running with Him does.  He expresses His Love in my ear and to my eyes and my heart. Who else could ever compare? He’s the only one that runs to capture my heart.

Love Always???

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