I only have one sure bet in my life. The one constant that is secure and guaranteed. The Love that He has for Me. It carries zero spiritual risk. This verse and the truth behind it, were understood. But, not really because I still had moments where I inserted my will. Faith and Fear coexisted. There were times that my trust was so high, I saw New Testament type miracles. Yet, I’ve had Faith valleys. Those particular points that exposed the true depth of my trust and it was less than shallow. Right now, though, I’ve gotten to the point, that I naturally believe this about Him without a lot of reservation or very much hesitation. I wrote two days ago that the book Beautiful Outlaw has flipped my mind and heart. I can never return to the way I viewed Jesus before. How I know Him now, is inscribed on my heart. I am kind of in the middle of a major test and this new closeness has given Me a weirdly illogical confidence. All because He turned a certain way, and I see an entirely different Jesus than I ever knew. I knew Him enough to understand and accept salvation but didn’t really know Him any closer than my limited perspective would allow. So, He obliterated it. At the same time, I ran across a post on Instagram by my friend Sandra. She wrote: “Our TRUST must be deliberate, on purpose, and of our will. It must be a TRUST built on an inner evidence that sees beyond all natural abilities. TRUST from the soul is infinite, it knows no limits, only infinite possibilities…TRUST written in our hearts will rise up in the face of opposition, stirring up memories of past victories…This TRUST demands a commitment of the heart. The enemy is no match when we with our whole heart TRUST in the LORD. TRUST requires abandoning our own way. When we do, we find a new order to life, God’s order.” Before, I would have read that and agreed, but it would have been hard to connect with Jesus. As of now, this makes complete sense. SS The trust Sandra wrote about is a heart commitment and no one commits their heart unless it is out of LOVE. And I am sure that prior to His most recent reveal, I would not have been able to sincerely say I love Jesus. I never really thought about it. I say I love God. I trust God. Aside from that, I didn’t think about Jesus in the same vein. But Jesus and the Father are one. So, it would be really hard to commit my heart in LOVE and trust to only one and not the other, but that is exactly what I did. I think that is why it was hard to be completely trusting and faithful since I was missing Jesus. Or leaving Him out because I didn’t understand Him. This is when His unfailing Love walked Me through a door of discovery and once I stepped in, I saw how He loves. The humanity and divinity of His Love. He loves at our level and I need that. He loves Me in my language and I really need that. But above it all, if I commit my heart in trust, I really really need a LOVE that won’t fail, and His is Fail Proof.
Love Always???
