Every soul pursues fulfullment spiritual or otherwise. We spend our time here striving to meet that desire; each of us driven by what is the most compelling to us. The number of ways that we seek to achieve completion is almost limitless. I think in the effort to find fulfillment, we chase multiple things. I guess, in a way, we are hedging our bets because experience reveals that just one isn’t enough. This is true for unspiritual pursuits. I’ve proven it and so has everyone who has wasted so much effort running after temporary fulfillment. You come up short so you have to decide to either keep trying to get full drinking from an empty glass, or start looking for another way to be filled. I lived like this before I knew Christ. I am guilty of living this way at times, even now. In thinking about this, I remembered the concept that I’ve heard taught regarding the void in each of us that can only be filled by Him. But I do not believe that it is a void as much as it is a connection to another being or beings that we seek. Fame, money, power, popularity, influence, followers, romance, acceptance, charm, etc, are ways to connect in some form to others. When connection fails, we keep trying or seek some other option to alleviate the pain. That is why sometimes food, alcohol, drugs, physical satisfaction, etc are secondary or companion pursuits. I believe most souls want to link with others. For a Christian, the Perfect Fulfillment is Christ. My Jesus. But I can’t see, hear, touch Him in the way my earthly self is accustomed to connecting. We are only together when it is spirit to Spirit. When I am fully with Him, I don’t need anything else. Yet, disconnection is possible even when I have experienced His total Love. It’s the human part of me. That is not to say human fulfillment is bad. Motherhood, friendship, romantic love, service, ministry are good. But not as replacements for Him. I am susceptible when I separate from Him because I’m leaning more into my human side. My soul misses Him when I lean there.
Lord, I want to want You, 100%. That is what my soul needs; You. It’s the human me that separates from You and starts pursuing another form of fulfillment. Lord, there is not one thing that You created, that is better than You. When we are totally one, I understand this and I see the futility of seeking fulfillment in things but especially in humans. They are just like me. Incomplete, without You. Even if I receive love, affirmation, attention, confirmation, it is never enough. They will feel the same, and will seek fulfillment in someone or something else. It’s inevitable.
Help me Lord, to let go forever of everything that causes me to disengage from You. Jesus, You are so beautiful and satisfying in your Love. We’ve been fully together in recent months, and then I intermittently separate. Away from You, nothing is the same and I cannot fulfill my soul or my purpose. You never move. We are the ones who are drawn away. You, though, know this and will give us what we need to stay in You. I expect it because I know You. You never replace me even if I disconnect. Lord, all of You is mine even while it is with all other connected souls. So, I will pursue it with every part of me, but I need you to help me. I need You to save me from anything that can pull me away. I don’t want to give my soul to anything or anyone more than to You. You are so forgiving and faithful and Your LOVE is absolutely enough. ??????
God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Phil 4:19
For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things. Psalm 107:9
The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs. Isaiah 58:11
“Seeking satisfaction in Christ alone serves two purposes: It is for our good and for the glory of God. “God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in him.” As we drink daily from the cup of Jesus, it becomes evident to those we interact with that Jesus is enough and our hearts will “flow rivers of living water” John 7:38.” (From desiringgod.org)
I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10
Love Always ❤❤❤ (You)