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But mine eyes are unto thee, O GOD the Lord: in thee is my trust; leave not my soul destitute. Psalm 141:8
Where else will I look? I don’t have another place to see the Love that I need to get me from place to place here in this world. If I hit a empty space, I look to You. Yesterday, I saw the sky and the sun peeked through these crazy looking clouds. I see You in this Light. You are the One who shines in the times I think I want to just give it up. But I can’t give up. I don’t have the capability to stop believing in You or to stop seeing how You love me. My heart is forever linked with Yours. Your messages are constant Love sayings and I really saw them in the book you gave me. I started with The Real God and it gave me knowledge of you. But then, I returned to the book I started back in January. The one I had put away, in heartbreak and discouragement. Beautiful Outlaw. I had only gotten to Chapter 8. So, I picked it up and that is when You appeared. And You just kept showing up. And every Chapter gave me more of You. More understanding, security, and more assurance of Your Love. Then last night, I had to seek You even more because life just won’t cooperate sometimes. It decided to introduce some pain and confusion and I woke up at 12:34 and it was not easy to try to return back to sleep. I realized in the most obvious way, that the only thing I know, is that I need You. Otherwise, I am functioning on a tiny bit of information and a tremendous about of blind faith. This is why I look to You. And when I do, I see this kind of Light. Your Presence assuring Me that I am not making a mistake in seeking You and I am not following You in error. Even if life tells me that I am. Even if taking my lead from you has not achieved everything I wanted. You won’t fail Me, just like the sun never fails to come out. As much as I wish I could know more and not be left wondering about so much, I am going to keep reading the book, the Book, and your Love sayings. I will also keep looking to You because you never move.
Love Always
I wanted to videotape the sky, but I couldn’t edit the sound out. Yesterday was kind of a weird day and then this morning was hard. I think it is a good thing I had to work today. It forces me to think of others and not become so introspective that I forget to love. It also helps that it is sunny today. I think I will sit outside for awhile. God bless.