My Hallelujah Remains


He stays with me and He refuses to leave. I can’t think of any other who would remain and be present without a gap or space. I mean, He is completely immersed in me. No one else can do that because when I am not kind, thoughtful, selfless, sacrificial, patient, gracious, loving and the other beautiful things He is, people can’t hang with that for long. They need to move away, step back or have some respite from it because they are human too. But God, He just sticks with me right in the middle of it. I’m finding that this is the profoundness of the Love He has for me. This may be TMI, but I have hit a place in my life where depression is real. I have never been a person who struggled with that. But, I’m there now. It doesn’t conform to logic which is frustrating because I would love to fix it with praise and gratefulness, Scripture, and prayer. It doesn’t really work like that. I do believe it can be bettered and that God can intervene. I’m just not sure how it will happen and so I am praying, praising, being grateful and seeking His Word and I’m getting help too. That’s part of the reason I put those memes, my artwork and even pictures of the beautiful place I live, on social media. I want to acknowledge His Goodness. The weird thing is, I’m a type “A” personality, so I am not the kind of person who can stop doing and checkout even though I’m going through this. I’m too responsible, reliable, dependable. I’m especially this way with my children and my friends and the ministry He gave me. So, maybe, that’s a good thing. I feel compelled to stay concerned and care. The only reason I’m putting this post up, is to say, the circumstances of this life, whether mental, emotional, circumstantial, relational, do not inhibit God’s closeness. He is not reluctant or afraid to be with you . He won’t hesitate in order to consider how to minimize His hurt. He just stays.

“I am with you always until the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20

“I know the LORD is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.” PSALM 16:8

Love Always.?