Let Them Go

If you’re here long enough, you’ll get handed all kinds of things. Some of those things were alive, valid, and relevant when you received them, but now they’re dead. Whatever they were, they no longer are. Therefore, holding onto them past their expiration date is a waste of life. Maybe your open hand held something  like a perfect flower or maybe, instead it was something difficult to handle like a cactus. Either way, once it died, you would know to drop it. But, what if you carried it around, every day? At first, it would be wilted, but then, it would deteriorate to an extent that would make it unrecognizable. But, you keep looking at it, watering it, thinking about it, being nostalgic/sad/longing over something beautiful or perhaps angry/bitter/hurt over something ugly and painful. You can do whatever you want, but it won’t change the fact that it’s dead. I know, I’ve held a lot of dead things. Some of those things,  I didn’t even want, but life gave them to me and I had to learn to live with them while they were alive.  You’d think, I’d be eager to release those once they died, but sadly, there were periods of time I’ve held onto some nasty, rotting things far too long. Yet, there were other things I was given that I loved and, to me, they were so incredibly beautiful. My desire would have been to keep them alive but that was not to be. Now, none of these things possess life. I cannot continue to carry them around any longer because it requires time/energy that will never reverse their death. It also makes it difficult to live when your hands are occupied with dead stuff. It even makes it hard to hold something new. So, let the dead things go.

“Forget about what’s happened;
don’t keep going over old history.
Be alert, be present. I’m about to do something brand-new.” Isaiah 43:18-19 TM

“I do not consider myself to have taken hold of it. But one thing indeed: Forgetting the things behind and reaching forward to the things ahead,” Phil 3:13

Love Always ❤


My Hallelujah Remains


He stays with me and He refuses to leave. I can’t think of any other who would remain and be present without a gap or space. I mean, He is completely immersed in me. No one else can do that because when I am not kind, thoughtful, selfless, sacrificial, patient, gracious, loving and the other beautiful things He is, people can’t hang with that for long. They need to move away, step back or have some respite from it because they are human too. But God, He just sticks with me right in the middle of it. I’m finding that this is the profoundness of the Love He has for me. This may be TMI, but I have hit a place in my life where depression is real. I have never been a person who struggled with that. But, I’m there now. It doesn’t conform to logic which is frustrating because I would love to fix it with praise and gratefulness, Scripture, and prayer. It doesn’t really work like that. I do believe it can be bettered and that God can intervene. I’m just not sure how it will happen and so I am praying, praising, being grateful and seeking His Word and I’m getting help too. That’s part of the reason I put those memes, my artwork and even pictures of the beautiful place I live, on social media. I want to acknowledge His Goodness. The weird thing is, I’m a type “A” personality, so I am not the kind of person who can stop doing and checkout even though I’m going through this. I’m too responsible, reliable, dependable. I’m especially this way with my children and my friends and the ministry He gave me. So, maybe, that’s a good thing. I feel compelled to stay concerned and care. The only reason I’m putting this post up, is to say, the circumstances of this life, whether mental, emotional, circumstantial, relational, do not inhibit God’s closeness. He is not reluctant or afraid to be with you . He won’t hesitate in order to consider how to minimize His hurt. He just stays.

“I am with you always until the very end of the age.” Matthew 28:20

“I know the LORD is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.” PSALM 16:8

Love Always.?

Invisible Love


For the last year and half or so, I’ve written about what I know and what I’ve learned and what I’m still learning about God and about Jesus. I’ve only had a blog for that period of time, but I became a Christian a long time before that, and I guess, when I first started, I thought that I could encourage people to look at God in a different way. I was hoping to take some head knowledge about Scripture and couple it with many of the truths I’ve internalized going through life. I know I’m not extraordinary in that regard. But, I figured, if my primary objective was to redirect people to God, then that would be sufficient. Somehow, many of my writings were centered around God’s Love. I came at it from different angles and intellectually, I believe everything I wrote.  Yet, from a personal standpoint, I don’t have a consistent heart connection to that Love. I don’t feel it inherently 100% of the time. It’s probably because, if you think about it, I’m advocating belief in an invisible love. I tell others about it and I’ve bet everything on it, but  because this is a spiritual concept, it won’t have the tangibility that I am accustomed to as a human. I can point to the Scriptures as proof or creation. I can remember every good thing and acknowledge it came from heaven. I can even witness miracles, but there’s still so much time on earth that He just doesn’t seem touchable or present like I’m used to in other human relationships.  It’s not like I can definitively “prove” God’s Love even with all these things. (Not that He needs me to)  There are definite, undeniable times His Love came in loud and clear. I would never say that He hasn’t loved me or loves me. What I’m trying to express is that I understand He Loves but because I’m still so mortal, I look at His Love or for His Love with unspiritual eyes at different points in my life. Maybe, you never do. You might be dialed in and never struggle with this. I’m not expressing myself very well so I sound kind of blasphemous. (It’s a good thing nobody really reads this blog) I’m not trying to take away from God the reality of His Love. I’m only writing out loud the thoughts that I have when I want so much to experience Him in a way that I know in human relationships. I’m sure that this is the reason,  I’ve tried to find my home and my joy in human love. I wanted that more than His and I haven’t been able to connect with Him like that.  Person to person love, is so here and now. It’s beautiful and feels fulfilling. But, He’s not going to acquiesce to my desire for that kind of limited interaction. His Love doesn’t demonstrate itself in human terms and there are no parameters that inhibit it’s manifestation. I’ve decided, I have to expand my heart and mind.  I’m not sure how I’ll get there. I’m  going to pray and rely on His help because I want to mature spiritually in order to see Invisible Love.

If Jesus is the proof of God’s Love. John 3:16 and Jesus is one with God, then we can see God in Jesus.
“He(Jesus) is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation.” Colossians 1:15

I’ll start here and “see” where He takes me.

Mystery of God

Science is always in discovery mode, and humanity needs that because science is knowledge. The only issue is that humans are limited in their capability to capture knowledge in every arena of science. So, the gaps are filled with theory until we obtain the necessary information. Science, then is never completely informed, definitive and authoritative in all things. Basically, it’s comprehensively  imperfect since it cannot answer all scientific questions even though it’s constantly learning.  From a logical standpoint, it seems unreasonable to believe then, that science can  disprove a perfect God. In fact, I think it actually introduces the concept of Him, even more. For ex. if you only decided to study a typical  human cell for your whole career you’d never finish collecting and researching all the data. Remember this in Biology:
Plasma membrane Channels/pores, nucleus, DNA, Endoplasmic reticulum, ribosomes, golgi complex,Mitochondrion, vesicles, vacuoles, Lysosomes, Peroxisomes etc. (This is an aside, believing that life is a random chance occurrence causes us to have to compromise our intelligence when we examine cells. We have to put logic aside to be able to ascribe all the organelles’ functions to the idea that they all just happened to evolutionize  in the most complimentary way to allow the cell to function the way it does.) Anyway, what if you then chose to drill down and only pursue the study of the mitochondria? The study of that one organelle would fascinate, challenge and keep you busy until you retired. Even then,  you wouldn’t have exhausted all the science behind it. Go look up mitochondria, it’ll blow your mind.  For biologists today, there’s still so many unanswered questions and so, there’s always hypothesis. I think, science is necessary to acquire knowledge but I also believe it reveals more of the truth of God and yet doesn’t require us to suspend our faith. It can supplement our belief in Him and also help us have a balanced understanding of life. Still, He is the Creator and the created will never fully understand His mystery.

“No, we declare God’s wisdom, a mystery that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began.” 2 Corinthians 2:7

“the mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the Lord’s people.” Colossians 1:26