Expanding Pupil

What an interesting poem. The double meaning is what caught my attention.

As a disciple, a learner, a pupil, I’m constantly being taught by life and by God. I especially get an education in storms. If I pay attention, it’s an understanding that spiritual eyes take in. The supernatural expansion of the pupils that allows us to see light where there is none.

I’ve been in some bad storms. I’m not in one now, at least not in an outward way. Maybe, I kind of am. Or maybe those are smaller life ones. The bigger storm is internal. The tempest in my mind and heart. It’s composed of the constant knowledge that I do not have joy. The joy of God. Do you understand what I mean? The transcendent joy that comes from Him and is completely not circumstantial. Don’t get me wrong. I know God’s love. I see it and I feel it. He’s stepped in and shown me in countless ways. This is why I’m trying to access that joy. So, decided I would read John. It’s the book that often non-believers are told to read first to learn about Jesus and of God. My plan is 3 chapters a day over 7 days. I need to know Him and to see Him more. I believe this is the answer. I’m 5 days in. I’ve been really trying to internalize and meditate on what I’m reading. Yesterday, in John 12:45, I read this:

” The one who looks at me is seeing the one who sent me.”

Every single thing that makes up Jesus, is God. Kind of elementary, I know, but actually not. This verse is at the tail end of chapter 12 and then in the next chapter, He washes dirty feet. This is what I see and then, I see God. Washing the dirt from his creation. Saying, “I’m your Teacher and Lord but above that, I’m your friend. And even though, I am God, and I can eliminate this world, I am not beyond connecting with you even though I have to clean you. There’s only one reason, I do it. I love you. So, stay connected.”

This is why:

“When you obey my commandments, you remain in my love, just as I obey my Father’s commandments and remain in his love. I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my JOY. Yes, your JOY will overflow! This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you.” John 15:10-12

Have I read this verse before? Yes. Many times. Did I know I would see it before I decided to read John? No. I was just counting on God to come through with the answer to my lack of joy. So, there it is. I do not miraculously have joy right now, but I do know that it’s possible. I also know it’s directly related to being fastened to Him and also loving people like a friend. Like Him. It’s definitely not possible without His additional intervention. This is why He had to give us the Holy Spirit. He’s practically doing everything.

I just need to respond to the light.

(I’m simply talking. Don’t worry or wonder. I need to write and express myself and some days that’s all I’m doing.)

Love Always????❣????❤?