One day, I was given a do over. It was the day I was reborn. He, though, loved the original me. Because of that, I didn’t lose myself. It was a restart that made me clean but I remained. His plan was to enhance me with Himself by depositing His Spirit in me so I could transcend myself and reflect Him. The result is a flawed person who has the ability to toggle between humanity and spirituality. How do you think I do with this? Am I so mature that I consistently and effectively display Him daily? I’ll answer for you. I am weak and I am strong depending on my heart. Since my heart is under my control and I have both human and spiritual influence, I can decide. How can I choose His Way when I mostly live amidst human sway? I can’t dig deep enough in myself. How will I get there? “So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any tenderness and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind.” Phil 2:1-2 I so desperately need my heart to gain momentum from the crazy Love He has for me. This Love is so far above any other that it has made me at times into someone I’d never inhabit in my old life. How else would a person see emptying themselves for the sole benefit of others as a desirable thing? If that isn’t the reason behind my heart, the rest of the words and teachings will seem impossible. How aware of all this do you think He is? This verse tells you. He knows. And He only needs a willing heart. One that will work it’s way into obedience out of love and respect for His Love. Then, He takes it from there.
Think of yourselves the way Christ Jesus thought of himself. He had equal status with God but didn’t think so much of himself that he had to cling to the advantages of that status… He didn’t claim special privileges. Instead, he lived a selfless, obedient life and then died a selfless, obedient death…Phil2:5-8 (I realized after I finished this piece that Philippians only has one L. There you go, flawed)
Love Always???
I am not too concerned that people know about my inability to be consistently spiritual. It is the truth and I am not an anomaly in Christianity. I’m convinced that if I love Him with my best effort, He’ll cover the gap. In fact, I believe He even empowers me to love Him. He is crazy in love with me and I know it because He’s done all the work to ensure I can be with Him forever. He’s not taking any chances. Sometimes, it’s that understanding of His desire to do everything He can to give me the perfect ending that gives my heart the need to allow Him to love in me. To push through me and love, I guess, in spite of me. This is probably unclear but I don’t know how else to explain it. He can inhabit me and bypass my human tendencies in a way that allows me to be Him. And it’s not always just the sweet, kind, empathetic behaviours or acts. It’s love for Him and/or for others. For Him, it can be a mindset change or a closeness or worship that is unique and super honoring. For others, it can be serving love, compassion, etc. But sometimes it’s teaching, or cutting through the fakery and being straight up. I’ve needed that at times. It’s just Love, Love, Love in whatever way it manifests itself to heal and promote reconciliation and bless people and Him. It is all due to Him. He wants to give me the same Spirit of Love He has and that is what overwhelms my human nature to accomplish His purpose. So, that is why I don’t care if I’m viewed as faulty Christian. He does His best work in those conditions.