Free In Love

I was bound and detained without hope of release. Yet during that time, I thought I was unconfined. I lived a life of open abandon that deceived me to think I had freedom. But I was restricted since my mind didn’t know Truth and Love. I functioned behind a barricade where I watched over my life and heart in order to keep it just as it was. Invulnerable and wary, I never anticipated He would crash in and liberate me. He wrecked the walls with tenderness. He walked right in and made it clear that He was Love. I opposed Him the whole way even after I accepted Him. He sent me words of Love until I couldn’t justify fighting anymore. So, I gave it away. My whole heart. My hands no longer holding, shielding, or protecting it. I released it completely and it was fully exposed. My only defense and buffer, was Him. This meant that I was truly free, but held captive by His Love. Now, He is in me, keeping me unrestrained and liberated from the fear of hurt. He sent me out in Love and my heart has now traveled into risky places that introduced wounds. It was inevitable that my heart would sustain injury over time since giving it away to others meant it could be returned broken. And it was. He, though, has it and He restores it over and over again. Each time He does, I am freer than before as He tells me nothing here can kill my heart. Still, I have felt like it was dying at different times, and in extreme hurt, have wanted to just take it back. Each time, the hurt seemed so great, it felt like the final break and no recovery would be possible. Without Him, it would be true. Because of Him, though, the hurt does not destroy me since He holds me and my heart forever. He won’t ever leave it damaged and unhealed. I can place it in His Hands and He will cradle it. He binds it and tends to it so that the breaks don’t overwhelm me. He renews it with His own Heart so that I am free in Love again.

2 Corinthians 3:17 “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.”

Love Always and Always

I believe that our heart is the ultimate gift that we give to Him and another. I’ve read that Time is, but I think it is far more dangerous and sacrificial to give our heart.  If I had never known Him, I would not be able to offer it up. It’s not like a gamble, where you know that even if you can lose, there is a chance you can win.  When you give your heart, you do it without expectation or return.  It mirrors Him.  I think that’s why reciprocal love is so sweet, to Him and to us.  I started thinking about this today and felt like writing about my own heart.  By locking it away, I was insulated from hurt, but I was restrained in love.  Then, when He liberated me, my heart was revealed and vulnerable, but now I could love freely.  I’m not completely like Him.  I still wrestle with wanting to cover it up and put it away, especially when loving those people that are unlovable  But, He is greater than me.