How else would LOVE be? Is it possible to love insincerely? I couldn’t. For me to love is to give your heart honestly, completely, wholly, sacrificially and with all the risk that comes with that. But, that doesn’t mean I have done that quickly, easily, or often in my life. I reserved love for a select number of people. I had legitimate reasons. All based on the past. So, my heart was highly protected. In order to preserve the integrity of the barrier surrounding it, I vetted anyone who could get close.* Once I could trust, then maybe, I could allow myself to know them and let them mostly know me. In time, I would hesistantly let love develop in me, but I would never ever tell someone “I love you” unless it were completely and seriously true. I’m looking at what I just wrote, and it is still me, today. Not completely, though, and I won’t remain that way. The Author of Love won’t let me. He decided to open up my understanding of Love in order to free me from the restrictions I created that stall or stop Love. He has always told me the truth about Love in His Word and His Life. But, that barricade around my heart was still intact. In the last months, He has used every meaningful, caring, powerful method to help me remove the walls. Then the time came to reveal the deeper understanding of LOVE which meant I would have to know Him in depth, since He is LOVE. Looking at Him as the definition of LOVE, He made it clear that my description of LOVE is right but without the barrier. He has no protection shielding His Heart. Nothing. It is available in Love to anyone at any time without restriction which means it is susceptible to breaking all the time. In order for me to Love, I have to make my heart as accessible as His. This has to be the most difficult change that I have ever faced. I’m in the process of it and I don’t think I will just pass through and be Jesus in LOVE by tomorrow. But, I see Him changing me. I’ve come to realize He is in me and He will transform me from the inside out, if I am willing. It has to be this way because I cannot do this alone. In my human nature, I do not want to open up the way to my heart and introduce heartbreak. I already know how that feels because even my high security clearance protocol, didn’t prevent it from happening. If I keep moving forward in sincerity, I will only do it through Him.
“I am crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me.”—Galatians 2:20
“Christ in you, the hope of glory.”-Colossians1:27
“do you not realize about yourselves that Jesus Christ is in you?” 2 Corinthians 13:5
I’ve decided, I’m letting Him. He’s doing it right now. He is residing in me and He has placed me in position to LOVE. And of course in His poetic wisdom, He has put locked hearts in my life. But, I know the password. It’s JESUS.
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies.
1Corinthians 13:4-8 THE MSG
*except my children??
Love Always ???❣????????❤?♥♡
